Life, love and everything in between...

So i havent blogged in a while. In fact, i havent blogged nearly as much as i had hoped to… But let’s be honest here, as you could pick up from my Tweets, recent weeks have been pretty damn tough on me… My heart… And every little piece that’s left of my shattered heart.

Yes, i’ve been working through what, in my life, is probably the most difficult, heart-shattering break-up i’ve ever experienced.

Not that there have been many, but there’s never been one of such significance to me.

Why do i say that?

Because for the first time in my life, i truly LOVED someone unconditionally.

But why did it fail then, you might ask…

Well, in short - love needs to come from both sides. If you are the one giving all the loving but not getting any in return, things are bound to fuck out big time!

During the honeymoon phase, I’d say “i love you” and he’d say “i love you back”…

Then as time passed, I’d say “I love you”, he’d say “me too”…

"Me too" what…? Love yourself too? Or love me? Then say it!

And the day that i knew we were doomed, i said “i love you”…. And you said nothing………

Now before you think i’m about to write a tell-all on my failed relationship here, i’d like to assure you that i’m not. I’m merely writing down some of my thoughts and sharing some advice from this hard-learned lesson on how i’ve experienced true love.

I’m not using the words “true love” lightly in any sense either. When i say it, i mean in. This, to me, was the real deal.

Maybe that’s why it’s taking so much strain on me…

But hopefully through blogging about it, i’ll be able to process it better… With the help of an expensive therapist, great supportive friends and the kind words of strangers, of course…

It’s 2:48am on Saturday morning and i’m writing…

(To be Cont.)